Wide Awake

It's 2:10AM. I am not asleep. This has been going on since I stopped taking the good pain drugs from the D&C. I assume that had it not been for the drugs knocking me out, this would have been going on since the day of the D&C.

I have never been a good sleeper. Back in the day I dreaded bedtime. I have always had to read or listen to music or watch TV to get to sleep. Due to Colin's amazing lack of interest in the news, (we watch the Game Show Network-he likes the clapping- or the Jungle Book movie pretty much everyday- watched it 5 times in two days) I get my info about the
rest of the world from listening to podcasts on
my iPhone as I fall asleep at night (which is also how I'm posting this right now). I have been listening for hours and hours this week. I'm fully updated on the world's events, but lord am I ever under-slept.

I have finally moved out to the living room so I won't be bothering my husband with my iPhone listening/solitaire playing combo. I have also finally decided that I am going to call the dr in the morning to see about getting something for sleep because this is ridiculous.

Adam's birthday is coming up on Monday, so I figure if you add that to this recent m/c I probably just need to listen to my body and mind and get some help for bedtime, because I am back to way way way dreading it.

Not too easy to check this entry on the tiny iPhone acreen so I'm just gonna let it post with problems and try to get on the regular computer tomorrow and fix it up (if I can pry my eyes open).

Comments

[JDEgirl]

Dear God. It's after 4 and I'm still up. What if my dr isn't in tomorrow and I have another nite of this? I don't drink caffeinated drinks at all, or exercise at nite (or ever). How will I take care of a 21 month old boy after no hours of sleep? Maybe it's time to whip out the caffeinated drinks. Maybe I can nap in the afternoon when Colin does. We are going to a playgroup in the morning so that should give me a little break and tire him out. There are much worse things than being up all nite, but this does suck.

[Shanna]

I hope that you can finally get some relief for your sleep problem. I also wanted to say how sorry I am about your loss. Don't give up on the husband about possibly giving it one more try. Just give both of you time to grieve and get healthy again. You are still young, relative to me so I can say that. ;)
Take care and I hope you get some sleep soon.