I have decided. It will be fine. At least I've decided that for now. At this moment. I may weaken again shortly, like I did yesterday afternoon when I had only known I was pregnant for about two hours and I suddenly was overcome with the feeling that this was the worst idea I had ever had. Stupid Stupid Stupid. Poor Colin wont get all of me. I will miss some of him. What a dummy I was to think this was a good plan. And we're probably getting ready to move again, but my husband will probably move ahead of Colin and me, so I'll be a single mom for a little while, so the timing sucks. Or does it? Maybe this falls under the heading of "the right baby is born at the right time".
I have decided it will be fine. I may start bleeding any minute. Or there may be no heartbeat at the 6 week u/s. Or the demon that took Adam may show up again at the 12 week u/s. Or there could be a healthy baby and we'll be all alone in a new city and have no support, no babysitters, no one we trust but god we knew that when we decided to go ahead and keep trying to get pregnant anyway so maybe it could be said that we got ourselves into this mess...but...what mess, really? Right now there is no mess - what we have is a possibility. And even if all goes wrong, or right, it will be fine. I have decided.
This is the best news I've heard all day. Good luck!!!
Trisha
:)
Posted by: Trisha | September 09, 2009 at 02:37 PM
Yes, it WILL be fine. NBHHY
Posted by: Lala | September 09, 2009 at 03:39 PM
Holy... wow! I see I'm a few days late, but just... wow! Or rather, WOW!
Possibility is everything. And you're not overreaching. NBHHY. More to the point: NBHH.
Posted by: Uncommon Julia | September 12, 2009 at 09:16 PM
So happy to hear... And yes, it will be fine. You, Steve and Colin are strong and ready for any adventure this baby has in store for you.
Posted by: Danielle | September 13, 2009 at 08:03 AM
I am rooting for you and wishing for the best possible outcome. Hang in there!
Posted by: Tonya | September 15, 2009 at 08:32 PM