Feeling Better Worries Me

I have felt like total crap for two weeks. It's been like having a hangover 24 hours a day. Awful. No throwing up, just nauseous, dead tired unable to lift arms or move at more than a sloth's pace. Had to tell the folks we hang out with what was going on or they would have thought I had swine flu.

And then I woke up yesterday morning and like magic I felt a least 50% better and that's good, right? because, dang, who wants to feel like garbage all day long and...err, or is it all that good?

I knew exactly when my second miscarriage happened. All my pregnancy symptoms just disappeared-whoosh. I feel better than I did two days ago, much much better, but not perfect. Then again, during our last miscarriage, I had no idea- I still felt pretty junky and gaggy (even asked the doc if it was in my head and he said no, the hormones were still coursing through my body even though the heartbeat had gone away.).

So, I have evidence on both sides of the 'pregnancy illness goes away or stays' issue. And this is the same eighth week that our last m/c happened. And my husband goes to Baton Rouge to start his new job on Saturday. And I'll be alone with a 2.5 year old. And I'm not convinced I'm still pregnant, but not convinced I'm not. And I don't really think this dr office is one that would give me a peace of mind appt. But if it is an m/c I'll be by myself when I find out and my next appt isn't for two weeks and thats a long time to wait and ... Oh the spinning mind late at night.

Comments

[thalia]

Ugh. Miserable. No way to know unless you badger for a peace of mind appt. Are you definitely sure they won't give you one? Worth asking?

[Danielle]

Just try to relax(I know- easier said than done... Shut up D!). You know that your body can create a beautiful child. Trust your body. Sending you love and kisses through this journey. I miss you terribly.

[Tonya]

I am hoping like crazy that things are still fine but that you're just experiencing an easing of the nausea symptoms. I second the idea for asking for a follow up appt. Will it hurt anything if you try to be seen sooner?