Things in the c00chie area have improved. I started alternating an anesthetic spray and a numbing cream. Turns out, I think, that I am sensitive to something in the spray - while it would numb things for a while, the itching came back ablazing and worse than ever. Several baths and some Benadryl later and that seems resolved - no more spray for me. I also went swimming one day (per a commenters suggestion) and it was wonderful. The chlorine caused some irritation, but overall it made me feel great, and I swear it did seem like the pressure of the water pushed things back where they should have been. Haven't had to use the cream since last night, and haven't needed an ice pack for days. Hope I'm not jinxing anything here.
I am feeling this new baby boy move a bit, which is nice, but what I'm feeling more of is contractions. Talked to Duchess, who reassured me that the practice contractions frequently come stronger and earlier in subsequent pregnancies, and that as long as they are not organized/regular I'm probably fine...
...but I'm trying to decide whether to say anything to the doc about it. Thing is, I think he's a pretty conservative guy, and I'm afraid he'll make the dreaded recommendation - that recommendation which will not be named here, because it is just is not possible. We have a 2 year old and no one to come watch him. My husband can't just take off work. This thought, this fear of getting the dreaded recommendation, (or worse, me being hospitalized like I was with Colin) awakens me at night. Not every night, but some - especially right before an appointment. (He's started to see me every two weeks, though I'm only at 28 weeks, I think. When did your doc start seeing you every two weeks? Seems early to me.)
I'm worried on so many levels: I have an appointment tomorrow and due to a mix up, my husband can't watch Colin, so I have to take him with me. I think its just a pee and blood pressure check, but the waits can be long at this office, and I'll have to wake him up from nap to go the the doc. And I was at exactly this point in my pregnancy with Colin when I went for a pee/bp appointment and didn't come home for nine days. Dear goodness, what if I have him with me and they want to do an NST, or who knows what else? I bought him a little sack of peanut M&Ms that we'll take, and I'm planning to bring a backpack full of activities and other snacks for him. Maybe if I'm over-prepared I can keep the bad stuff from happening.
Really, I should not complain, or even have the nerve to worry. I'm not a service worker who is on her feet all day and whose family literally would go hungry without my employment. I no longer feel so miserable that I would rather do anything (including go to the dentist) than continue being pregnant.
** I hadn't mentioned the contractions to my husband, but I did just fess up this evening, and I told him I was worried whether to mention it to the doc tomorrow. He said to go ahead and tell him. Will update tomorrow to let you know that everything at the appointment went well, and my son was an angel the whole time. Oh, and don't be concerned that all this worry will raise my blood pressure - I have abnormally low bp, so that is unlikely to ever be a problem for me, I think.
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